Everyday Magic – A poem.

She visits when I sit alone,
hands sliding across my face
to cover my eyes. The childhood
game I can never win.
I feel her expanding and swelling,
deflating, her hair waving across
the back of my neck—
the tidal pull of the gravity of us.
She melts behind me, barely shifting,
and her arms hold. I pretend she is warm.
I pretend the house around me
is not filled with fast food bags
and soda cans,
and the TV paused on some show
about a guy or a girl placed
in an awkward situation.
A supposedly live audience laughing.

I pretend I can feel her breathing,
feel her skin and breath and body
pushing against mine comfortably.
She teases the ring on my finger,
twisting around and around
until I open my eyes, and pull
my hand away from the polished ring,
look past the coffee table of cans
and bags, and fight the ache.

A garbage bag eats the trash—
fills with emptiness as it gets full.
Now, the living room is clean. Bare.
Dishes next—
she always asked me to
wash them. Scrub away
stains and crust, like picking a scab.
A glass cracks, absorbs the pressure
of my ring on its surface.

I stand at the sink, broken
glass in hand as laughter drifts
from the TV.

JKolasch

Horizon – A poem.

It’s like falling—
the sudden jump of nothing
catches in my throat
and drops far below
what I thought.

I bury myself
in the ambient sounds of the world
and hold on,
hold on so hard my fingers ache.
Afraid that if I open
my eyes and open my hands
that you will drift away—
lost in the eddy of light
that bathes me in pale warmth.

Orange isn’t a comfort
when it’s not only the sun that sets.
Dark brings the rain
and the ocean to swallow me whole.

I crave the light to return,
to set the world ablaze.
In the morning, though,
it doesn’t bring you back.

It’s like falling.

JKolasch

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